6 weeks to a new you !!!

Have you ever seen those crazy late night infomercials that claim you can change your life completely in just 6 short weeks by using whatever crazy product they are promoting that night, be it a weight loss pill, or a new crazy fad exercise program ? Yeah me too, they never work. 

Well, I have been given 6 weeks to sit at home and do NOTHING. Not one single thing. I've never realized just how much I did in a day till I was told I couldn't do any of it anymore. I can't cook, clean, carpool the kids, do the laundry ( I'm not complaining about this one.) I can't go to the gym or walk around the mall to go shopping (not that I have done this since I was 18, but the option would be nice) Basically I can't do anthing but sit on the couch and get fat. well, fatter.

I went to the Dr. today for a post op follow up. While they said I was healing nicely, they were very adamant about not doing ANYTHING. No bending, NO lifting, NO twisting, NO sitting for too long, NO laying for too long; Basically, NOTHING for 6 whole weeks. Last time I had restrictions like this I got a baby at the end of it. It didn't take me this long to recover after my C-sections, but man, I'm not doing as well with this as I did with those. Everything hurts, sleeping hurts, walking hurts, sitting hurts ( mostly my butt) 

I had a mini breakdown today after visiting work and finding out, even though the Dr. released me back to work on a light duty restriction, they don't allow light duty restrictions and I can't work till the first or second week in JUNE. yeah, the whole month of MAY is off work. I cried in my boss's office when he stepped out for a minute, (don't tell anyone) I panicked, what is going to happen to us financially? I'm about to be getting medical bills I can't pay, and that's going to be added to the everyday living expenses. I was about to start a second job to help cover our bills. That's going to have to wait now. With me having no income coming in, hubby is going to have to work more hours and he's already limited on how many he can get because we work for a stupid union. (Don't get me started on this one.) The only good thing so far is that I may qualify for a short term disability through the union. Hopefully the disability checks start coming in soon and I can breathe a little easier. 

This all could not have happened at a worse time, we were trying to save as much as we could to move to a different apartment in June. Every time we get a glimmer of the light at the end of the deep, dark tunnel, a boulder breaks off the roof and crashes down blocking the way. I seriously need to buy a jack hammer !!! hey, do you think they have a 6 week program on how to operate a jack hammer ? I got the time now..........

I've lost my appendix

 My Easter weekend was not how I planed it.
 Easter morning I woke up in the very early morning hours with sharp stomach pain. I have a history of having cysts on my ovaries and just figured it was one of those again, which Dr's won't do anything for, or a bad tummy ache. I went back to sleep hoping to sleep it off and maybe it would go away on it's own. It did not. I finally went to Urgent care about 2pm. they told me to go to the ER they thought it was my appendix and that I needed to go get an ultrasound and all they had was an X-ray machine. (Not helpful to me)
So we headed towards the hospital, However, on the way there the pain subsided and I figured it was a cyst after all and it had ruptured. pain gone, end of story. I opted to go home and rest instead of wait in an ER waiting room and have them tell me I was fine and there was  nothing they could do, but let me rest it out.
About 9pm the pain came back WAY worse than it had been and it had been bad before.
I called my hubby who left work early and the MIL came to put the kids to bed. Off to the ER we went. We got there at about 10:30pm. I checked in and told them I had been sent by urgent care and that they had thought it was my appendix. I was told to have a seat and wait. they took blood and urine and ran some test, and I waited, and waited and waited.oh yeah, and I waited some more. Finally after 3.5 hours of waiting I was brought back at 2AM. examined and told, I was probably having an ovarian cyst rupture and that like I thought there was not much they could do except manage my pain. They sent me for the ultrasound to check the Ovary and to my surprise it revealed I do not have a right ovary anymore. So clearly it was not a cyst on my ovary, so off to CT I went. Hubby had to leave to get the kids up and ready for school and to release his mom who wanted to go sleep in her own bed, I didn't blame her, I wanted the same thing. shortly after 6AM the Dr came back in and it was determined that I did in fact have appendicitis. I was scheduled for surgery for later that day and moved up from the ER to the main hospital.
surgery was at 3pm and by 6 I was back upstairs in my room and one less useless organ.
at least I'll know the next time I have pain like this in my lower right belly it is in fact NOT my appendix.

Hashimotos is killing me slowly

I'm dying....
No not literally, well not yet anyway, But I feel like I am. This damn disease is kicking my butt. I'm a freaking emotional wreck. I am on the verge of tears all the time, I'm hot one minute freezing to the bone the next. I get pissed off at the stupidest stuff. My hands are shaky, just typing this is hurting. My joints are all swollen and painful. I'm beyond tired all day long no matter how much sleep I get. My hair fell out in giant clumps the other morning in the shower. I have thick hair, so this was devastating to me. I cried. My skin looks like crap too. I'm all dry and scaly. And today at work I flipped out on a coworker and kept forgetting my stupid produce codes. These are codes I know by heart. So tonight as I write this, I am drinking a giant glass of wine, and feeling sorry for myself.